Monday, 25 January 2010

Paranoia

'a mental condition characterised by delusions of persecution or exaggerated self-importance....it may be a characteristic of chronic personality disorder or of drug abuse.'

The effects of years of 'puffing' have finally caught up with Lee. I can't exclusively blame the weed for giving him delusions of self importance, as I think I may have had a part to play in that. The years of attention I afforded him, often at the expense of my own family, were no doubt instrumental in making him feel important.

There was a time when receiving messages from me made him 'go all tingly' (his words) but now, it seems, they leave him feeling persecuted; so much so, that he feels the need to warn mutual friends about me.

I had to smile at the irony when I learned that, predictably, I'm being described as some sort of nutter. He may have convinced his wife that he's been the victim of a 'bunny boiler' but, thankfully, the friend in question has a better insight into my mental state.

I shouldn't be surprised that Lee twisted the truth to appease his wife as he had a knack of dreaming up excuses to get himself off the hook but I'm slightly concerned that he still feels the need to apportion to me, any blame for the shit that's going on in his life.